New Beginnings

I think it's easier to BLOG when big things aren't happening in my life. It's a lot easier to focus on the strange people I meet on the street or something silly that happened in the grocery store than it is to examine the big stuff.

Wednesday morning we picked up the last of our belongings from the condo, packed John's motorcycle, and said goodbye - to the condo, to each other, and to a phase in our life. I am not sure that either one of us is fully ready to say hello to the new phase yet.

John is in Custer, South Dakota right now where he met his aunt and uncle and will travel with them back to their home in Colorado. For the first part of his trip he will have stints of being alone, then with relatives, then with other motorcyclists until he leaves Creel, Mexico and heads off to language school. Being on your own is not an easy thing when you are used to always having someone there, especially when you are in a foreign country and don’t know the language. This trip will be an adventure in more ways than most people realize.

I am excited, sad, lonely, happy, envious, admiring…I am so many things at once that I don’t know what to do with myself. I thought maybe I would be able to throw myself into work – I need to since there is so much for me to do, but I just can’t seem to get anything done. I am surrounded by boxes that I don’t want to unpack and I am not sure why. I don’t think it’s the work involved – that doesn’t bother me. I think if I unpack too much it will mean that I am saying hello to this new phase. Even though it’s here, and I’m in it, I’m just not ready.